Ugh! I am so tired of being so slow, being so weak and having no perceivable endurance.
How many times have I started over, and how many times have I tried and not seen results. And how many of you have gone through, or are going through the same thing?
The worst part is that I know better… with my brain. I know that fitness takes time, persistence and consistency. That’s probably why I’ve never been that good at it. Many years ago, I tricked myself into getting somewhat fit. I just wanted some time with my hubby away from the kids. He wanted to lift weights. So I went. I didn’t like lifting. I would have preferred doing one of the aerobics classes. I mean, what woman doesn’t like doing something akin to dancing? But, no. Instead I faked lifting weights. At least for the first half to 2/3rd of each workout. Then I’d get mad at myself and start trying… a little.
I guess weight training worked for me. I don’t remember how long we kept it up, I didn’t track it. So, today, I have no idea how to duplicate my results. Everyone is different, I’m a lot older now, and what worked then may not work now.
My current husband is an avid runner and cyclist, and does it on his own…which means I don’t have someone to hang out with during the workouts… he is much faster than me running and biking. So I try to do it on my own, only to get frustrated at my lack of progress after a month or so.
Today was my first run in a couple of weeks… Maybe if I keep restarting, eventually I’ll get into the shape I want. And maybe, just maybe, I’ll get faster.